Sunday, January 31, 2010
It's ancient history, but...
The other day I spent time with a couple of friends; it was the first time we all hung out together again for a long time. It was fun, but as the day and night went on, they talked more and more about the things that had happened to all of us within the past year and a half. And I realized that, even after all this time, thinking about some of those things still stings. I've found myself wishing that I could go back and either re-live some of those memories or prevent them from happening in the first place.
As a general rule, I try to learn from my mistakes rather than pretending that they didn't happen, but it's hard to think about these things sometimes because I know that I have regrets about them. But what good is it for me to dwell on it? I can't go back to those happier times or change what has already happened. The only thing I can do now is to keep living my life the way I want to live it, so that I will have as few regrets as possible when it's over. I know this as well as the next person, so why is it harder for me to deal with it than it is for everyone else?
As a general rule, I try to learn from my mistakes rather than pretending that they didn't happen, but it's hard to think about these things sometimes because I know that I have regrets about them. But what good is it for me to dwell on it? I can't go back to those happier times or change what has already happened. The only thing I can do now is to keep living my life the way I want to live it, so that I will have as few regrets as possible when it's over. I know this as well as the next person, so why is it harder for me to deal with it than it is for everyone else?
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
It has been a long time (again).
Wow, I completely forgot that I actually updated this thing a few times between fall 2008 and now. That shows how bad I am at keeping up with this thing. I'm planning to completely redesign this thing and my website sometime soon, so I figured I'd post something and try to get back into the habit of writing.
Every time I come back to write here, I feel like I've grown so much since I last wrote something here. It's surprising, and actually kind of scary, in a way. Who knew that I'd still have so much growing up left to do at 23 years old? I also know I'm still not even close to being finished growing, which is even scarier. Luckily I'm taking longer than the average student to finish college, so hopefully I'll be ready to grow up by the time I graduate. I hope I am, anyway.
To tell the truth, I've already grown so attached to Richmond and the people that I've met since I've been here that I'm absolutely terrified of graduating because graduating means that I'll have to leave everything I have behind and start fresh. While that might be good for me in some ways, I just don't know how I'm going to be ready to leave my family and all of the friends I've made when the time comes. I can't stay in Richmond because the fashion industry just doesn't exist here, but I'm scared to go to New York or California or wherever I end up having to go because I won't have anyone there. It's not just the fact that I won't have anyone that bothers me, either. I also don't know how I'm going to be okay without the people that I want and love and need to be close to me. It's just terrifying to me.
I also kind of wanted to write about some of the things that have happened to me since I've been at VCU, since I didn't really go over them the last few times I wrote here. So much has happened that I can't possibly go over all of it in a single post, and I don't really feel like going over everything in great detail, so I'll just highlight some of the important things.
My now ex-boyfriend and I broke up in November of 2008 (but we're still best friends!), and although I've been officially single since then, I've been involved in two things that were not quite relationships since then. I fell in love with one of them, and I was rejected by that person. Then I got used and betrayed by one of my so-called friends, but luckily I got out of that situation fairly easily. I'm currently still in love with the other, but that situation is complicated and I'd rather not go into it. For now, I'll just say that even though it almost seems hopeless for me, I'm not ready to give up on that. Meggi is an unstoppable force of love, bitches.
Although not everything has been great, I've met a lot of wonderful people and had a lot of wonderful experiences here. I went to my first concert here. I went out on Halloween for the first time since middle school here. I tried a kind of alcohol that I didn't hate for the first time here. I went to a club for the first time here, though I've since decided that I'm not crazy about clubs. I tried bubble tea for the first time here, and I've had so many other new experiences since I've been at VCU. I've learned a lot, too. I've learned how to crochet, bind books, sew, work with wood, make patterns, make animation and videos, and all kinds of things. It's been great.
Anyway, I'm going to go draw something now before bed, so I'll try to remember to write again later.
Every time I come back to write here, I feel like I've grown so much since I last wrote something here. It's surprising, and actually kind of scary, in a way. Who knew that I'd still have so much growing up left to do at 23 years old? I also know I'm still not even close to being finished growing, which is even scarier. Luckily I'm taking longer than the average student to finish college, so hopefully I'll be ready to grow up by the time I graduate. I hope I am, anyway.
To tell the truth, I've already grown so attached to Richmond and the people that I've met since I've been here that I'm absolutely terrified of graduating because graduating means that I'll have to leave everything I have behind and start fresh. While that might be good for me in some ways, I just don't know how I'm going to be ready to leave my family and all of the friends I've made when the time comes. I can't stay in Richmond because the fashion industry just doesn't exist here, but I'm scared to go to New York or California or wherever I end up having to go because I won't have anyone there. It's not just the fact that I won't have anyone that bothers me, either. I also don't know how I'm going to be okay without the people that I want and love and need to be close to me. It's just terrifying to me.
I also kind of wanted to write about some of the things that have happened to me since I've been at VCU, since I didn't really go over them the last few times I wrote here. So much has happened that I can't possibly go over all of it in a single post, and I don't really feel like going over everything in great detail, so I'll just highlight some of the important things.
My now ex-boyfriend and I broke up in November of 2008 (but we're still best friends!), and although I've been officially single since then, I've been involved in two things that were not quite relationships since then. I fell in love with one of them, and I was rejected by that person. Then I got used and betrayed by one of my so-called friends, but luckily I got out of that situation fairly easily. I'm currently still in love with the other, but that situation is complicated and I'd rather not go into it. For now, I'll just say that even though it almost seems hopeless for me, I'm not ready to give up on that. Meggi is an unstoppable force of love, bitches.
Although not everything has been great, I've met a lot of wonderful people and had a lot of wonderful experiences here. I went to my first concert here. I went out on Halloween for the first time since middle school here. I tried a kind of alcohol that I didn't hate for the first time here. I went to a club for the first time here, though I've since decided that I'm not crazy about clubs. I tried bubble tea for the first time here, and I've had so many other new experiences since I've been at VCU. I've learned a lot, too. I've learned how to crochet, bind books, sew, work with wood, make patterns, make animation and videos, and all kinds of things. It's been great.
Anyway, I'm going to go draw something now before bed, so I'll try to remember to write again later.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
My fun-filled Labor Day weekend
I might need a new pencil sharpener. I bought some nice new Prismacolor pencils last week, but my current pencil sharpener doesn't get them as sharp as I want them. I might go looking for one later in the week.
Anyway, last week was my first full week of classes, and it was super busy. So far I haven't had too much trouble keeping on top of my assignments while still balancing a bit of a social life at the same time, though.
My roommate went home for Labor Day weekend (and still isn't back yet; I'm starting to get just a little worried about her), but one of the girls on my floor (who is also an art major and in one of my AFO classes) invited me to go thrift store hunting with her and her ex-boyfriend on Saturday, and I ended up spending most of Saturday and Sunday hanging out with them.
I found three good pairs of jeans that I originally planned to wear in the woodshop this week, but I like them all so much that I really don't want to risk ruining any of them. In the end I narrowed it down to the one pair that I liked the least as my woodshop jeans for tomorrow, and when I go home for the weekend to trade out some of my summer clothes for more fall clothes, I'll bring some of the jeans that I don't like as much and save the newer ones.
The jeans I plan on wearing tomorrow night are a pair of medium blue SO brand (I think it's a Kohl's brand) bootcut jeans. They were about three inches too long so I cut them off for convenience, though I'm kind of regretting it because I don't like ragged hemlines and I won't be able to hem them for a while. I really hope I didn't ruin them by cutting them like that. :\ I bought them at the first thrift store we went to for about $2.08.
The second and third pair of jeans I bought were significantly more expensive because they came from a store owned by Goodwill; one was $10 and the other was $5. They're both dark wash jeans, one is another pair of bootcut jeans by Delia's, and the other is a pair of high-waisted straight leg jeans by Sarah Jessica Parker's Bitten brand. Both of them are also too long and to be honest, I think the Delia's jeans are an extra long size because I had to roll them up twice to keep them from dragging on the floor, but because I was already regretting the alterations I'd made to the first pair, I didn't bother cutting them off to be the right length. I wore the high-waisted ones to my drawing class today, and I must say that although I'm really not used to wearing high-waisted or straight-legged jeans, I think they're very flattering on me and I'm glad that I picked them up. I wonder if they'll look good with some of the older tops that I have that aren't quite long enough to cover my stomach when I'm wearing low-rise jeans. I might have to wear some of my older tops more often if they do, haha.
After we were finished looking for good deals in Carytown on Saturday, we went to Ben & Jerry's and although I really wanted ice cream after walking in the heat all day, I was also thirsty so I ordered a mango teazer instead, which was something like a slush with tea in it.
We all got together on Sunday again and went to the anime club, which was significantly smaller this week than the first club meeting. To be honest, I was a little relieved for that. The first meeting was so crowded, and I was very uncomfortable with all of the people making comments and other sounds at all of the lame and obvious fan service in the first series they showed. If the second and third series hadn't been awesome, I probably wouldn't have returned this Sunday.
After the club, we went to Lowe's to pick up our next set of supplies for space research. My friend's ex was a great help; I basically showed him our list and he picked out almost everything we needed without question. He also carried the big pieces of wood (4x4' pieces of 1/4" thick wood) all the way to our classroom for us because we couldn't fit them in the car. Luckily the building was only about maybe a block away.
We then went to try some bubble tea at a little cafe on Cary Street because when we were driving around town the day before we saw some places advertising it and we all decided that we should try some. It was pretty good, and very different from what I'd imagined. I guess I probably would've figured it out if I'd looked it up before, though. It was a nice surprise, in any case. XD
After the bubble tea, it was getting to be time for dinner, so we went to Kobe (a Japanese restaurant) on 13th Street for sushi, and it was great, as always. :3 I felt kind of bad that my floormate treated us, but since she called it an early birthday present for me, I'm planning to return the favor for her when it gets closer to her birthday, which is later in the month.
Yesterday I actually worked my butt off trying to finish my space research project, which is due tomorrow night. Luckily I got most of it done and today I finished up everything that I wanted to add, though I'm still not completely happy with it. I'm just not very passionate about the theme of the assignment, and I'm not very interested in working with cardboard, so no matter how hard I worked on it, it'd be pretty hard for me to be completely happy with it. I do feel a sense of accomplishment from completing it, though.
Anyway, I need to go read some more Tulip Fever for my literature class now, so I'll write again whenever I have the time. :3
Anyway, last week was my first full week of classes, and it was super busy. So far I haven't had too much trouble keeping on top of my assignments while still balancing a bit of a social life at the same time, though.
My roommate went home for Labor Day weekend (and still isn't back yet; I'm starting to get just a little worried about her), but one of the girls on my floor (who is also an art major and in one of my AFO classes) invited me to go thrift store hunting with her and her ex-boyfriend on Saturday, and I ended up spending most of Saturday and Sunday hanging out with them.
I found three good pairs of jeans that I originally planned to wear in the woodshop this week, but I like them all so much that I really don't want to risk ruining any of them. In the end I narrowed it down to the one pair that I liked the least as my woodshop jeans for tomorrow, and when I go home for the weekend to trade out some of my summer clothes for more fall clothes, I'll bring some of the jeans that I don't like as much and save the newer ones.
The jeans I plan on wearing tomorrow night are a pair of medium blue SO brand (I think it's a Kohl's brand) bootcut jeans. They were about three inches too long so I cut them off for convenience, though I'm kind of regretting it because I don't like ragged hemlines and I won't be able to hem them for a while. I really hope I didn't ruin them by cutting them like that. :\ I bought them at the first thrift store we went to for about $2.08.
The second and third pair of jeans I bought were significantly more expensive because they came from a store owned by Goodwill; one was $10 and the other was $5. They're both dark wash jeans, one is another pair of bootcut jeans by Delia's, and the other is a pair of high-waisted straight leg jeans by Sarah Jessica Parker's Bitten brand. Both of them are also too long and to be honest, I think the Delia's jeans are an extra long size because I had to roll them up twice to keep them from dragging on the floor, but because I was already regretting the alterations I'd made to the first pair, I didn't bother cutting them off to be the right length. I wore the high-waisted ones to my drawing class today, and I must say that although I'm really not used to wearing high-waisted or straight-legged jeans, I think they're very flattering on me and I'm glad that I picked them up. I wonder if they'll look good with some of the older tops that I have that aren't quite long enough to cover my stomach when I'm wearing low-rise jeans. I might have to wear some of my older tops more often if they do, haha.
After we were finished looking for good deals in Carytown on Saturday, we went to Ben & Jerry's and although I really wanted ice cream after walking in the heat all day, I was also thirsty so I ordered a mango teazer instead, which was something like a slush with tea in it.
We all got together on Sunday again and went to the anime club, which was significantly smaller this week than the first club meeting. To be honest, I was a little relieved for that. The first meeting was so crowded, and I was very uncomfortable with all of the people making comments and other sounds at all of the lame and obvious fan service in the first series they showed. If the second and third series hadn't been awesome, I probably wouldn't have returned this Sunday.
After the club, we went to Lowe's to pick up our next set of supplies for space research. My friend's ex was a great help; I basically showed him our list and he picked out almost everything we needed without question. He also carried the big pieces of wood (4x4' pieces of 1/4" thick wood) all the way to our classroom for us because we couldn't fit them in the car. Luckily the building was only about maybe a block away.
We then went to try some bubble tea at a little cafe on Cary Street because when we were driving around town the day before we saw some places advertising it and we all decided that we should try some. It was pretty good, and very different from what I'd imagined. I guess I probably would've figured it out if I'd looked it up before, though. It was a nice surprise, in any case. XD
After the bubble tea, it was getting to be time for dinner, so we went to Kobe (a Japanese restaurant) on 13th Street for sushi, and it was great, as always. :3 I felt kind of bad that my floormate treated us, but since she called it an early birthday present for me, I'm planning to return the favor for her when it gets closer to her birthday, which is later in the month.
Yesterday I actually worked my butt off trying to finish my space research project, which is due tomorrow night. Luckily I got most of it done and today I finished up everything that I wanted to add, though I'm still not completely happy with it. I'm just not very passionate about the theme of the assignment, and I'm not very interested in working with cardboard, so no matter how hard I worked on it, it'd be pretty hard for me to be completely happy with it. I do feel a sense of accomplishment from completing it, though.
Anyway, I need to go read some more Tulip Fever for my literature class now, so I'll write again whenever I have the time. :3
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