I feel like I'm still playing the waiting game with VCU. I've been accepted and I've finished almost everything that needs to be done before I can go up there, but I still feel anxious and impatient. I probably won't feel comfortable about the whole thing until I actually get up there, but it seems like the summer is dragging on forever, and I don't like it. I feel like I should be relaxing, but I can't relax because I want things to get done, but I can't get everything done right away and I'm frustrated about that.

In addition to being impatient about starting at VCU, I've also been a little upset that my boyfriend will be leaving soon. I don't like being emotional or mopey, and I don't want those kinds of feelings to prevent me from enjoying my experience at VCU, but I don't really know how I'm going to deal without him. We didn't think we'd ever have to say goodbye again, and that's going to be the hardest part about it. I don't really want to think about it.

In other news, I finally got around to ordering the shoes that my mom promised to buy for me. I decided to just get the Converse shoes and not bother with the other pair. They're cute, but I looked at a similar pair by the same brand in Journeys and I just didn't think I would like them because they're made differently from the kinds of shoes that I'm used to wearing and I just don't know if I would be happy with them. Plus they're skate shoes, and I'm not a skater, so I don't know if I should even be wearing them if I'm just going to be walking in them. So for now, I'm not going to worry about spending the extra money on them.

Well, I have to wake up early tomorrow morning, so I'm going to go get ready for bed now. Goodnight! :3

Labels: anxiety, boyfriend, shoes, upset, vcu

I wasn't able to register for Monday's orientation after all. Friday morning I woke up early to call about the apartments and start making the appointments to look at them on Tuesday, but I first went to VCU's website to see if my response had been processed yet. It had been, but unfortunately the only orientation date left to me was the July 7th orientation. At least I didn't have to go through the trouble of making the appointments in the first place and then having to cancel on them, but I hope that there will still be a decent selection of apartments for me to choose from by the time I get up there.

I also still haven't received my information packet yet. To say the least, I'm not surprised, but I'm very disappointed that my prediction, which was not meant to be a serious one, that my information packet wouldn't arrive before Monday came true.

To be honest though, I'm a little relieved that I wasn't able to go to Monday's orientation because this way I will have a little more time to mentally prepare myself to deal with everything. I will also have a little more time to actually receive and read my information packet and also an orientation packet, which is supposed to include all of the details about my orientation. I'm still feeling anxious about everything though, and I'm getting worried that I won't feel better until after I actually start my classes.

In other news, I've been kind of bored today, since there isn't really anything left that I can do about my orientation right now. There are a lot of other things that I could and probably should be doing, but I just don't feel like it. I don't want to be bored, but I just don't know what I really want to do right now, and it's really bothering me. I think that it might have to do with my anxiety, but I don't know how to get rid of it.

I know it's terrible, but I really want to go shopping again, and I don't know if I can wait for my mom to get home on Monday or Tuesday, but I don't want to go by myself or with my boyfriend because either way I won't get the opinions I want on the things that I want to look at, and now that I'm unemployed, I really can't afford the extra gas, either.

Labels: anxiety, boredom, orientation, shopping, vcu

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