Tuesday, January 5, 2010
It has been a long time (again).
Wow, I completely forgot that I actually updated this thing a few times between fall 2008 and now. That shows how bad I am at keeping up with this thing. I'm planning to completely redesign this thing and my website sometime soon, so I figured I'd post something and try to get back into the habit of writing.
Every time I come back to write here, I feel like I've grown so much since I last wrote something here. It's surprising, and actually kind of scary, in a way. Who knew that I'd still have so much growing up left to do at 23 years old? I also know I'm still not even close to being finished growing, which is even scarier. Luckily I'm taking longer than the average student to finish college, so hopefully I'll be ready to grow up by the time I graduate. I hope I am, anyway.
To tell the truth, I've already grown so attached to Richmond and the people that I've met since I've been here that I'm absolutely terrified of graduating because graduating means that I'll have to leave everything I have behind and start fresh. While that might be good for me in some ways, I just don't know how I'm going to be ready to leave my family and all of the friends I've made when the time comes. I can't stay in Richmond because the fashion industry just doesn't exist here, but I'm scared to go to New York or California or wherever I end up having to go because I won't have anyone there. It's not just the fact that I won't have anyone that bothers me, either. I also don't know how I'm going to be okay without the people that I want and love and need to be close to me. It's just terrifying to me.
I also kind of wanted to write about some of the things that have happened to me since I've been at VCU, since I didn't really go over them the last few times I wrote here. So much has happened that I can't possibly go over all of it in a single post, and I don't really feel like going over everything in great detail, so I'll just highlight some of the important things.
My now ex-boyfriend and I broke up in November of 2008 (but we're still best friends!), and although I've been officially single since then, I've been involved in two things that were not quite relationships since then. I fell in love with one of them, and I was rejected by that person. Then I got used and betrayed by one of my so-called friends, but luckily I got out of that situation fairly easily. I'm currently still in love with the other, but that situation is complicated and I'd rather not go into it. For now, I'll just say that even though it almost seems hopeless for me, I'm not ready to give up on that. Meggi is an unstoppable force of love, bitches.
Although not everything has been great, I've met a lot of wonderful people and had a lot of wonderful experiences here. I went to my first concert here. I went out on Halloween for the first time since middle school here. I tried a kind of alcohol that I didn't hate for the first time here. I went to a club for the first time here, though I've since decided that I'm not crazy about clubs. I tried bubble tea for the first time here, and I've had so many other new experiences since I've been at VCU. I've learned a lot, too. I've learned how to crochet, bind books, sew, work with wood, make patterns, make animation and videos, and all kinds of things. It's been great.
Anyway, I'm going to go draw something now before bed, so I'll try to remember to write again later.
Every time I come back to write here, I feel like I've grown so much since I last wrote something here. It's surprising, and actually kind of scary, in a way. Who knew that I'd still have so much growing up left to do at 23 years old? I also know I'm still not even close to being finished growing, which is even scarier. Luckily I'm taking longer than the average student to finish college, so hopefully I'll be ready to grow up by the time I graduate. I hope I am, anyway.
To tell the truth, I've already grown so attached to Richmond and the people that I've met since I've been here that I'm absolutely terrified of graduating because graduating means that I'll have to leave everything I have behind and start fresh. While that might be good for me in some ways, I just don't know how I'm going to be ready to leave my family and all of the friends I've made when the time comes. I can't stay in Richmond because the fashion industry just doesn't exist here, but I'm scared to go to New York or California or wherever I end up having to go because I won't have anyone there. It's not just the fact that I won't have anyone that bothers me, either. I also don't know how I'm going to be okay without the people that I want and love and need to be close to me. It's just terrifying to me.
I also kind of wanted to write about some of the things that have happened to me since I've been at VCU, since I didn't really go over them the last few times I wrote here. So much has happened that I can't possibly go over all of it in a single post, and I don't really feel like going over everything in great detail, so I'll just highlight some of the important things.
My now ex-boyfriend and I broke up in November of 2008 (but we're still best friends!), and although I've been officially single since then, I've been involved in two things that were not quite relationships since then. I fell in love with one of them, and I was rejected by that person. Then I got used and betrayed by one of my so-called friends, but luckily I got out of that situation fairly easily. I'm currently still in love with the other, but that situation is complicated and I'd rather not go into it. For now, I'll just say that even though it almost seems hopeless for me, I'm not ready to give up on that. Meggi is an unstoppable force of love, bitches.
Although not everything has been great, I've met a lot of wonderful people and had a lot of wonderful experiences here. I went to my first concert here. I went out on Halloween for the first time since middle school here. I tried a kind of alcohol that I didn't hate for the first time here. I went to a club for the first time here, though I've since decided that I'm not crazy about clubs. I tried bubble tea for the first time here, and I've had so many other new experiences since I've been at VCU. I've learned a lot, too. I've learned how to crochet, bind books, sew, work with wood, make patterns, make animation and videos, and all kinds of things. It's been great.
Anyway, I'm going to go draw something now before bed, so I'll try to remember to write again later.
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