I feel like I'm still playing the waiting game with VCU. I've been accepted and I've finished almost everything that needs to be done before I can go up there, but I still feel anxious and impatient. I probably won't feel comfortable about the whole thing until I actually get up there, but it seems like the summer is dragging on forever, and I don't like it. I feel like I should be relaxing, but I can't relax because I want things to get done, but I can't get everything done right away and I'm frustrated about that.

In addition to being impatient about starting at VCU, I've also been a little upset that my boyfriend will be leaving soon. I don't like being emotional or mopey, and I don't want those kinds of feelings to prevent me from enjoying my experience at VCU, but I don't really know how I'm going to deal without him. We didn't think we'd ever have to say goodbye again, and that's going to be the hardest part about it. I don't really want to think about it.

In other news, I finally got around to ordering the shoes that my mom promised to buy for me. I decided to just get the Converse shoes and not bother with the other pair. They're cute, but I looked at a similar pair by the same brand in Journeys and I just didn't think I would like them because they're made differently from the kinds of shoes that I'm used to wearing and I just don't know if I would be happy with them. Plus they're skate shoes, and I'm not a skater, so I don't know if I should even be wearing them if I'm just going to be walking in them. So for now, I'm not going to worry about spending the extra money on them.

Well, I have to wake up early tomorrow morning, so I'm going to go get ready for bed now. Goodnight! :3

Labels: anxiety, boyfriend, shoes, upset, vcu

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